January 27, 2015

Why Liking Someone and Technology Just Won't Blend

* Inspired by true events: my awkward self and the very awkward social media dos and donts that rule our world today. *
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You see the worst thing that could have ever happen to me in middle school before technology, I wasn't allowed to use myspace hallelujah, was when it was my birthday and everyone sang happy birthday and my "friend" stood up in front of all the 5th-8th graders and proudly proclaimed "Conner* sang it too!"And everyone then proceeded to know (tho they already did) that I loved this Conner.* They also started a rumor that I once stole his notebook and called it Conner*'s wishy-washy notebook. (WHO MAKES UP THIS STUFF!?) And yet I have to say it only got worse when technology was involved... (* indicates that the name has been changed... sorry all you Conners who got excited thinking I loved you....) 

This is a recent story... in fact it happened Christmas Day. I had just stayed up talking to a guy Christmas Eve and it was going pretty well. It ended on a good but odd note and I was a little confused about something he said and the way he meant it, but we had said our goodnights and I went off to dream land. Of course then the morning came and after opening presents, right before the big Christmas Breakfast... I ran upstairs with my sister to discuss the previous night. (For Christmas I had received the Iphone6 early as a present) So as I am scrolling through our texts, I look down to realize I had just recorded part of our conversation... and with that realization I somehow sent it to him. I start hyperventilating and crying and wishing I was anyone else at this point. I am praying to God, texting friends, and still hyperventilating and considering throwing my phone out the window. I just knew this was it, I ruined everything and was never going to hear from him again. (I even maybe had shed a few tears over how stupid I can be.) Well, what do you know he surprised me by texting me (what?? I truly did not see that coming) and a simple "Merry Christmas!" at that. We then held a nice little conversation and the grand little voice memo was never brought up, still to this day. Praise Jesus!!
We've all been there, hey I even wrote a blogpost before about it, you are doing a little innocent internet creeping and the next thing you know you are in way too deep. It happens to the best of us, you're innocent on instagram and keep clicking and the next thing you know you're stalking some random girl who lives in Richmond and you have no clue how it got this way. You just open google and type in the name to make sure he's not a total creep and the next thing you know his mother's pinterest pops up with a whole board dedicated to him and it's just too much information you should have never seen. The internet is filled with great inspirational messaging, too many common white girls and their starbucks (me included!), but it's also filled with sites that can show you their instagram, Facebook, address, myspace, etc. The world is a scary place we live in. And let's not even talk about liking a photo when you're down to the 75 weeks ago photos.... tragic. 

Two years ago the boy I had the hugest crush on (I'm talking a good six years) finally "made his move" and liked my Facebook status (lolz). I hyperventilated and could barely speak at first I remember shutting my two friends up and banging on the table exclaiming look at my status. Tears of joy were shed (lol) I mean I started screen-shoting that moment, texting it to a good friend from out of town. I then proceeded to scream and to waltz around the room like a disney princess. The status was seriously nothing special, yet it basically had made my life. (I mean everyone knows liking a status basically meant a marriage proposal right? duhhhh) Our mind can get excited over the simplest of things, and personally I love that fact. Now, no I don't think that because he liked my status it means that was a proposal and he basically has always been in love with me but it was a crowning moment in my clearly pathetic life hahah. About a week ago I found this buzzed video and couldn't help but burst into laughter a) because like duh this it totally our inner monologues when it comes to good ole insta and b) it totally reminded me of my Facebook status experience I just shared above. 

I don't think I'll ever get technology to "work" for me and my love life but I also think that's the beauty of it all... I get to share fun embarrassing stories like this for everyone on the internet to read (and I pray they can relate too.) So for now here's to the snaps we get when we have no makeup and am laying in bed in unwashed hair from our crush, may we never accidentally add our crushes Dad on Facebook, and here's to the countless conversations you have in your head figuring out just if and when is the best time to add that guy on Facebook and instagram even though you guys text and snapchat. Ugh finding love is hard ;) 

January 26, 2015

Late Night Thoughts

Here I am wanting to plan, I like planning. Meanwhile God just wants me to make like Elsa and let it go. There is a quote I once wrote in my journal: "God sometimes wrecks your plans before they wreck your life." This should be the theme of my life. I may enjoy planning but in the long run I am probably the worst at it. I make horrible decisions haha: from the men I got involved with, to the way I pursued my dreams (and in some cases gave up too easily.) God doesn't want us to run to him with our plans all perfectly laid out, He just wants us. Planning can be limited (yes I just quoted The Bachelor...) , the best we can do is live our life and follow after Him. When you're living in constant communication and prayer with Him, well then the doors will open and the paths will become clear. And for the planner inside of me I can't lie I cringe a little.... I like being able to see ahead of me and know what I am getting into. But that's just not how it works. 

I vow tonight that I know He holds my future in his hands. I know that my future is bright and I have a purpose. This time in my life is dedicated for me to learn more, to grow in my relationship, and to seek every opportunity to step out on faith. The blind fold may be on but I know that my hand is securely being held by Jesus. 

January 23, 2015

Friendly Friday?

It's a sleet turned rainy day and I am bundled up in my covers watching Dance Moms (newest obsession right now....) and drinking some tea... wishing I was in NYC eating some macaroons right now! (what's new) 

It's not my birthday weekend (like the fabulous Courtney whom I stole this idea from) but it's a rainy day and the creative juices are leaving me like the rain is leaving the clouds. So here I go talking about myself again haha:

Four Names People Call Me Other Than My Real Name:
1. Brookie (This is the most common one.)
2. Princess (This is the second common hahah, and I get called Princess Brooke tons)
3. Brooklyn
4. and the occasional cuss word from beach goers at work o:

Four Jobs I've Ever Had:
1. Babysitting.
2. Beach Tag Checking (For those of you who don't know what that is... it's a real thing I promise.)
(3 & 4 don't exist because I have only ever done that lol)

Four Movies I've Watched More Than Once:
1. Bring It On (ummm I still know every word and can do the dance to Mikey in the end credits to this day)
2. Tarzan (i'm obsessed okay...)
3. The Wizard of Oz (my all time favorite movie)
4. Mean Girls (obvi)

Four Books I'd Recommend: 
1. Never Have I Ever: My Life (So Far) Without A Date (I'm currently rereading it I found it so hilarious)
2. Audition (If you are serious about acting, read this. I reread it usually every summer if I can)
3. Someday, Someday, Maybe (Ummm hello Lauren Graham -Gilmore Girls- wrote a book and it's fab)
4. Bossypants (Need a laugh?)

Four Places I've Lived:
1. Virginia
2. New Jersey
 (3 & 4 don't exist... yet)

Four Places I've Visited: 
1. The Bahamas
2. Disney World
3. New York City
4. South Carolina

Four Places I'd Rather Be Right Now:
1. A Cruise Ship
2. New York City
3. Disney World
4. Lynchburg lol

Four Things I Don't Eat:
1. Olives
2. Ferrero Rochers
3. Black Licorice
4. Turkish Delight

Four of My Favorite Foods:
1. Sesame Chicken
2. Seafood Mac and Cheese
3. Fish Tacos
4. Mangos

Four Things I'm Looking Forward To This Year:
1. Going back to school after taking a year break, I'm getting so antsy!
2. Finally getting my license... five years late but whatever lol.
3. Deciding on school back where I used to go or Jersey!
4. This summer and a trip with the girls to finally relax!!

Four Things I'm Always Saying:
1. Obsessed (I say I'm obsessed to everything.... and I totally am lol)
2. SHUT UP (The way Princess Mia uses it in The Princess Diaries)
3. I'm sooo hot (I have a horrible tolerance for being hot and have been stripping all over the house... a bit dramatic....)
4. Can you get off netflix so I can watch it? (I'm obsessed with Friends and Dance Moms okay....)

Welp there's a little more about me :)

Garlic and Kale Spaghetti

It's no secret that I love love love food. And back when I lived with two girls in a house and didn't have a job spaghetti kind of became the go to meal but I get bored easily and didn't want the same old same old spaghetti sauce or no sauce- it all started tasting the same. But I can honestly say this recipe... I can eat over and over and be so content. (As long as I exercise to cancel out my need for pasta hahah)

Recipe: Garlic and Kale Spaghetti
Makes: 4 Servings

What you'll need:
8 oz spaghetti
1 clove garlic, minced
2 tsp. lemon juice
a dash of red pepper flakes
1/4 cup kale, chopped
olive oil
parmesan cheese to your liking

Prepare the spaghetti according to the package instructions. Drain pasta. In a sautè pan: have olive oil, red pepper flakes, and kale waiting for you and add in the pasta. On a medium low heat also add in the garlic and toss around mixing it evenly. Cover with lemon juice and parmesan cheese if that be your wish (I just have a cheese obsession honestly). It really doesn't matter how long or how short you keep it in the pan as long as it's all pretty well mixed in. 
Then voilĂ , dinner is served. 

January 21, 2015

For The Romantics

I like being single. I can eat whatever I want, stare at whomever I'd like, and talk to the cutest guy in the room (lol nah that's won't ever be my but I mean I.... could.) Valentine's Day doesn't usually even bother me but this year it kinda is bringing a downer only because I am obsessing over RIFLE PAPER Co's adorable Valentine's Cards and I mean I could send them to myself but that's just not the same ya know. 

So I'll be over here swooning over all the cards. Also I totally chose two cat themed ones for my top four fav... so if that doesn't scream future cat lady to be I just don't know what will.

But seriously check out the cards, they are to die for!! Forget falling in love with love, fall in love with the cards...

((also The Last Five Years is totally coming out Valentine's Day and I am not feeling the whole crying in a theatre by myself))

January 16, 2015


I have been sooo behind on the whole blogging thing and I keep thinking to myself wait... it seriously is 2015? 

I am not going to sugar coat anything 2014 may have been one of the worst years of my life. I ended up failing my last try to officially be a theatre major in my dream school, which ended up in me briefly loosing my passion for theatre in general. I ended up being so confused with my life I took a break from school and returned to my parents home. I since then ended up being their cook and maid and still was confused about what I should be doing. To top it off I also lost my dog Theodore, the only huge dog I had met that didn't scare me half to death. Through the bad though... 2014 brought some of the most amazing memories that made the bad things bearable. 
So far 2015 has been the embodied theme of the timing is off. I even had to pass up on a new years eve kiss, like that's every girls dream. So let's raise a glass to changing the timing.

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